I stared at my reflection in the mirror. Again.
Look at yourself in the mirror. When you look at the perfect people on screen, in films and commercials, the aim of the maker's is to generate envy. They have been prodded and edited to such an extent that they don't recognise themselves. Yet, when you look at them, you are supposed to want to be them. You should want to feel as skinny. As perfectly curvy. With amazing skin and an enviable wardrobe. Don't. As a filmaker, I know the amount of work that goes in to create those images and when they make you feel not so good, look at yourself in the mirror and see that you are perfect. . . . . . . . . . . . . #strong #mentalhealth #filmmaker #filmsecrets #media #bodyimage #loveyourself #instapic #redhair #filmmaker #Canadian #torontoblogger #bodyimage #quotes #selfcare #redhairdontcare #femalefilmmaker #lovequotes #inspirationalquotes #indiangirl
I wanted to pinch out the skin poking out from my tummy, I hated it. I poked hard and felt the two abs I had worked hard on all summer. And looking at me, you would never guess how much protein I ingest and how hard I worked out and how heavy I lift.
My loose skin was my Everest.
I decided to document it in a video HERE.
How being strong and healthy and finally in the correct weight and BMI and BMR and every possible scale does not mean you look like it.
I would wear tight clothes and see a roll seep out. How I hated my loose skin.
So, I went to my trainer. He is the best trainer ever and if you are ever in Delhi, hit me up and I will direct you to him.
I am a military girl. My father is a military man and he has always led by example showing me I can be strong and powerful. When I was a 300 pound girl, he still did not underestimate me. As I started lifting, people would say I am MANLY , they would tell me to go and do YOGA and RUNNING and just be more skinny and less muscular. But my dad went and got me dumbells and a personal trainer and I was hooked. A shoutout to all amazing dads out there!! Let's lift ladies. Follow my journey on youtube LIFTLIKEAGIRL
We discussed ways to tackle my loose skin and he was at a loss. We experimented with many strengthening creams and lotions and I started wearing a waist trainer as I went back home to London, all in the hopes of seeing my ab definition, if ever!
Every night, I had the same routine and every time I just felt NOTHING.
I understood the limitations of my body post losing almost 100 pounds.
I would never have the perfect body! I had taken my body for a ride and had ignored it so much that I should be happy with whatever I got.
I accepted my fate.
But something in me did not.
Fast Forward one year and I was shopping at Calvin Klein store in New York. A dream come true right?
Ever since I could remember myself, I would buy the cheapest pair of jeans possible in stretchy material and then wrestle with it in the trial room and cover it up with long tops. So, I was delirious as I entered Calvin Klein stores and did nit get stared at but was suddenly offered size 4 and size 6 jeans to try!.
A single digit size!!!
Where is your happy place? I am the happiest when I am at the gym. Join me for a live chat and Q&A about the relation between mental and physical health on youtube live at 3 pm EST. Convert the time for your zone or comment down your questions, DM me or message me and I will answer/discuss them. Also, the stream will be available to watch later on as well. Find me on youtube : Liftlikeagirl
Now, technically, I am a size 2, but we are not talking numbers here. In my happiest body moment, my loose skin hit me hard again and I had to buy a size 8 pair because the loose skin on my thighs would not let me inside a size 6.
That night, as it rained outside my window, I went back to my roots. And it jumped at me.
Dermatologists speak so much about Vit E and I had tried all possible creams and lotions and I was wary.
But which naturally occurring thing has more Vit E than anything?
I got me some virgin coconut oil added in sugar granules and every night massaged my whole body with it.
I remembered how my yoga guru would tell us to always massage the body with oil before taking a warm bath and I did that. Every single day.
And the results?
A no filter #transformationtuesday I bulked and cut and lost weight and am so happy with my results. And despite the physical change a strong mental change has ensued. I have started a journey of discovering myself. Cliched enough? But under layers of fat and bad eating habits and stupid society, you tend to shut yourself in a cage. I am on youtube now, breaking the cage so that no one goes through what I did. we are beautiful at all sizes and fitness is about making you the best version of yourself. Join me on liftlikeagirl . . . . . . . . . #fitfam #fitlife #girlswithmuscles #beautiful #ukfitfam #weightloss #selflove #instafit #stronghold #strong #delhigirl #londonblogger #fitfam #bodybuilding #femalefitnessmotivation #indianfitness
Let’ s just look at my amazing definition in THIS VIDEO right here.
Speaks for itself doesn’t it?